Words from an Inmate

A man came into the counselor’s office this morning and asked if he could read a poem he had written about the pain of addiction. He began to read:

Mom, dad, wife, & children too

Everyone I love, seems I hate them too

Running from home, spinning out of control

Coming back around with holes in my soul

A smile played all over my face

Choking back tears within their embrace

Destroying my home, steeling their hope

What right, I ask, did I ever have

By lying & steeling all they ever had

It’s funny now, through all of my schemes

They’re still holding on to all of my dreams

Love, hope, family, & home

All I gave up just to get stoned

Maybe I’ll wake up and get this thing right

Maybe I won’t & be high tonight

Pathetic addiction & choices I’ve made

Take me from home & close to the grave

Running in circles then back again

One last chance not to die in my sin

Jesus said, “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly,” (John 10:10 ESV).

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The Pain of Addiction

Pain

If you have never struggled with addiction you must read this!  This short essay was written by an individual in throws of addiction.  Note the way the writer describes this struggle with addiction.  It is almost seen as a living breathing enemy.

“The pain of addiction can never be fully realized outside of the human soul so unfortunate to have found him or herself within the grasp of her ugly piercing teeth.  What metaphor is appropriate to describe addiction? How could one who has never experienced it ever understand the gravity of addiction on one’s life?   Perhaps it could be likened to a choking vine that grows up beautiful at first but soon is so wild and nu-tamable.   It wraps it’s self so completely around you that it is difficult to determine what part is you and what part is the addiction.  It has grown so fast and wild that it chokes out nearly every area of your life.   Perhaps addiction is best described as a demon inside you.  He fights for control of your thoughts and actions.  Although there are victories you are constantly aware of his presence and his power.  I think of addiction as a dragon.  He is fierce, unmerciful, and seeks to utterly destroy you.

Sometimes the addiction is so overwhelming that I can literally pray to God for strength to turn from the destructive beast only to go immediately after it.

(Anonymous)

Let’s pray for those caught in the dragon’s teeth.